I won't ask for much this Christmas, I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting underneath the mistletoe
-- All I Want for Christmas is You
I was listening to some Christmas songs these past few days, and their happy beats definitely puts me in the holiday's festive mood. I was even singing along to the lyrics until I got to the part about the mistletoe. It made me stop and sigh because on this side of the world. there are no mistletoe moments.
And I wonder what it's like, to have someone suddenly kiss you. Especially if, say, that person is attractive :> But all that would never happen here, even if I'll be able to import a mistletoe and hang it up on my door. People will only look curiously at it and move on. And if anyone does recognize what it is, they would only smile bemusedly and shake their heads.
Although I am thankful for my country's conservative culture where a respectable distance is approved; I can recall times when I'm grateful that some guys kept their hands to themselves o_o (I think you can imagine what type of guys those were.) It's just that sometimes, (okay, a lot of times) I wonder how it would feel to be in someone's arms, to have him so close.
To have him brush my hair away from my eyes so he could see me better.
To have him suddenly come from behind and wrap his arms around my waist.
To feel the warmth of his hand on the small of my back as he leads me outside.
To have someone to snuggle comfortably with.
Of course, I know that there are other things more valuable than physical aspects like respect and trust and commitment, but come on, I'm an adult now and turning another year older soon, but here I am wishing for something that a pre-teen is already experiencing on the other side of the world. I mean, what if my love language is physical touch? That would just make me more frustrated.
I don't know if I should be the one initiating these things, but of course the girl in me won't allow that. Oh well. For now I can only wait for our men to become a bit more bold. Even a hug once in a while would be truly appreciated.
And I wonder what it's like, to have someone suddenly kiss you. Especially if, say, that person is attractive :> But all that would never happen here, even if I'll be able to import a mistletoe and hang it up on my door. People will only look curiously at it and move on. And if anyone does recognize what it is, they would only smile bemusedly and shake their heads.
Although I am thankful for my country's conservative culture where a respectable distance is approved; I can recall times when I'm grateful that some guys kept their hands to themselves o_o (I think you can imagine what type of guys those were.) It's just that sometimes, (okay, a lot of times) I wonder how it would feel to be in someone's arms, to have him so close.
To have him brush my hair away from my eyes so he could see me better.
To have him suddenly come from behind and wrap his arms around my waist.
To feel the warmth of his hand on the small of my back as he leads me outside.
To have someone to snuggle comfortably with.
Of course, I know that there are other things more valuable than physical aspects like respect and trust and commitment, but come on, I'm an adult now and turning another year older soon, but here I am wishing for something that a pre-teen is already experiencing on the other side of the world. I mean, what if my love language is physical touch? That would just make me more frustrated.
I don't know if I should be the one initiating these things, but of course the girl in me won't allow that. Oh well. For now I can only wait for our men to become a bit more bold. Even a hug once in a while would be truly appreciated.
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